Faith

Faith is the realization of what is hoped for and evidence of things not seen (Heb 11:1) 

Right now I'm listening to Ralph Martin's talks on St. John of the Cross.  In one talk, he discusses the need to let go of memories and other positive things, the idea being that if we possess those, we cannot possess God who cannot be reduced to such things.

He discusses how faith requires an absence.   If we possess visions, locutions, etc., we will have those things, not faith.  

This is giving me comfort in my current situation because so often I cannot readily see God's hand in my situation.  When I look hard, I can.  There are so many things to be grateful for, things that could be much worse.  The very fact I'm still alive is evidence of His providence.  But I would love to see Him.  I would love to hear Him.  And when I am in environments where prophetic gifts are abundant, I sometimes feel that I must be doing something wrong.  

But maybe, God is doing a different work in me.  In His seeming absence, He's growing faith.  And I can't wait to see that abundant faith in action.